Honoring Parents / News from Kolcraft

Returning To Work After Maternity Leave

Michelle's little girl just 2 days old

It’s my first day back to work at Kolcraft which seems fitting since it’s Mom Monday. It feels like an eternity since I’ve last blogged (for those who are not long-time readers, I worked up until the day before I went into labor which was August 9, 2011). In so many ways before baby (now known as BB) seems like a whole other life. What have I been doing since August? I’ve been getting to know the little girl who has truly changed me.

BB I never left the house without looking “put together”.  Now if I am able to run a brush through my hair I consider that “put together”. I used to be able to knock out multiple errands in an hour. Now I consider it a victory if I can do one errand. I used to be able to leave the house with just a small pocketbook. Now I resemble a pack-mule lugging a diaper bag, daycare “stuff”, car seat – you name it. But the biggest change from BB is one you can’t really notice from the outside, because it’s one that has happened in my heart.  I’ve felt concern on a level I’ve never had to endure before. I’ve learned to love in a whole new way. And I’ve experienced a deep, profound joy that I never knew existed.

Already causing trouble :)

Yes, these past three months were about diapers, spit up, sleepless nights, crying and unfortunately sickness. I’m not saying it was easy (I have a whole new respect for Stay At Home Moms), but it was a precious time I will always cherish. Now I’m moving to the next phase of learning the lesson of  “letting go”. I dropped off my baby at daycare and it broke my heart to have to leave her. It’s not easy to be a mom who works outside the home, but it is what it is and I find myself having to trust in a whole new way. I have to trust that these people will care for my baby and look out for her best interests and do a good job at it. I can’t control this – I just have to let go.  I’m lucky I am returning to a workplace with a compassionate boss, a president and CEO who stopped by to make sure I was “ok” and welcome me back and great co-workers. I also love what I do. I get to work with amazing moms and dads who help me to become a better parent.

Motherhood is a crazy ride I couldn’t have imagined in my wildest dreams how exhausting it is, but more than that how each second bursts forth with love and possibility as I marvel at the gift of my little girl. So here I am – back to work and blessed beyond belief.

Peaceful sleep

Posted November 7, 2011

by MichelleH

10 Comments

10 Responses

  1. Patti says:

    You are an amazing example of a mom who really is present even when things didn’t go as \planned\. I agree that in parenthood, often the one who changes and grows the most is yourself. Letting go and trusting has been the 2 greatest struggles and gifts I’ve dealt with and am still dealing with even as my kids are 18 and 14! Your daughter is absolutely beautiful and such a gift! Thank you for sharing your journey. I look forward to hearing more!!

  2. Michelle says:

    Thank you Patti. And I look forward to learning form “seasoned moms” like you :)

  3. Sharon says:

    Great blog Michele and welcome back. Your words of wisdom tug at the heartstrings of all of us who have been right where you. I hope you are keeping a “journal” of these thoughts to share with that darling angel when she is old enough to understand. Thanks again for sharing. Can’t wait to see my own kids when they come home from college for Thanksgiving.

  4. Michelle says:

    Thank you so much Sharon. I actually have been keeping a journal of letters I’ve been writing to her since I found out I was pregnant. I hope to give it to her when she is grown up. (Hopefully she won’t be reading this blog any time soon to find out my surprise :) )

  5. Stephanie says:

    Michelle-she is beautiful!!! What a great post, a glimmer into your private life as a new mommy. I hope the transition back to work is easy on you and Miss BB. What a blessing you are to us all!

  6. Mirm says:

    Congrats on your dear daughter. I am going to be returning to work after Thanksgiving, after child #3. The hardest is definitely leaving your little one in another one’s care.

    Best of luck to you.

  7. MichelleH says:

    Thank you Stephanie. I’m really lucky to work with such great people & meet wonderful moms like you. :)

  8. MichelleH says:

    Thank you Mirm & congrats on baby #3. That is wonderful. Will be thinking of you as you return to work. Good luck!

  9. child care marketing…

    [...]New mom returning to work after maternity leave Baby Matters Blog[...]…

  10. Hand Work at Home…

    [...]New mom returning to work after maternity leave Baby Matters Blog[...]…

Leave a Reply